


Everything You Ever Wanted

by X59



Category: iCarly
Language: English
Status: Completed
Published: 2010-08-09
Updated: 2010-08-09
Packaged: 2014-04-03 16:31:13
Rating: K
Chapters: 1
Words: 512
Publisher: www.fanfiction.net
Story URL: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6221125/1/
Author URL: https://www.fanfiction.net/u/1394414/X59
Summary: A song fic dealing with some of Freddie's thoughts and feelings towards his father, to the song Everything you ever wanted by Hawk Nelson.





	Everything You Ever Wanted

I know that I should be focusing on "Memories of the Past" but I still can't think of what to write for the other characters nor am I 100% sure on how to write out the request chapters. Well I heard this song and something about it just screamed Freddie.

The song is "Everything you ever wanted" by Hawk Nelson.

* * *

There are things Freddie does not talk about.

His father is one of them.

_I walk the line__  
__Leave it all behind__  
__I've been waiting forever__  
__Lets go back in time__  
__When I could read your mind__  
__Still I've been waiting_

He remembers clearly his father waking out the door promising to be home later.

_It took the seasons going by__  
__To know its not my fault_

For the longest time he wondered if he did something wrong.

If his father left because of something he did.

_I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest__  
__Tried to be everything that you ever wanted__  
__I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter__  
__Tried to be everything but you_

He tried so hard in everything, foolishly clinging to the hope that if he was perfect that his father would return.

_Its been so long__  
__Since you've been home__  
__I used to wait up forever__  
__I used to say a prayer__  
__Wishing you were there__  
__And I'm still waiting_

When he was younger he would pray for his father to come home.

_You told me once__  
__You'd show up__  
__But I fell for that__  
__Before I fell to pieces__  
__Then I woke up__  
__To no one,__  
__Just a picture of Jesus__  
__And a house left in pieces_

Nothing is the same.

His mom has become extra protective and paranoid.

_It took the seasons going by__  
__To know its not my fault_

At 10 finally realizes that he is to blame for his father abandoning them.

_I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest__  
__Tried to be everything that you ever wanted__  
__I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter__  
__Tried to be everything but you_

There are moments when he sees fathers and sons together and wonders….

If his father would of come home, if he was more like him.

_I wanted you__  
__I need you__  
__I want to believe you__  
__I wanted you__  
__I need you__  
__I want to believe you_

When he was younger he desperately wanted his father return.

_I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest__  
__tried to be everything but you_

He is not his father.

_I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest__  
__Tried to be everything that you ever wanted__  
__I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter__  
__Tried to be everything but you_

He won't abandon his family.

_I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest__  
__Tried to be everything that you ever wanted__  
__I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter__  
__Tried to be everything but you_

He is glad that he didn't try to become like his father.


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